Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Just asking...

... Is there an off button for a baby crying at night? I know it's my fourth time around and I should know by know, but still...

PPD is kicking in, and in moments of extreme fatigue - which I've been having continuously for the past 3 nights and days - my one-month-old baby is begining to lose his God-given charm. As you know, I am looking for humor in every situation, but in this one my brooding mind and weeping heart might need a microscope to find some. You see, my son wasn't born a sucker (pun intended). He would latch, take a few gulps and fall in a blissful sleep. Naturally, I did everything the nurses and lactation consultant at the hospital told me to do - while nursing play with his feet, with his ears, with his jaw, undress him so he's cold - but nothing worked. So, since he wasn't gaining enough weight, I had to start adding some formula in order to have time to pump my own milk. And now, between pumping, feeding my baby, feeding myself (not to mention raising my other three amigos), I fear the sense of drowning looming on horizon.

And just before you ask, my hubby is not of much help primarily because he spends most of the day at work and the night sound asleep so he can be ready for the said work the next day. I'm the one with the rabbit's hearing in our house, and can hear my kids burping in the other room in the middle of the night, let alone calling and asking for something be it in a form of whispering or shouting or, as it were, baby's cry.

As my friend once posted on Facebook, I'm rolling with the punches. And rolling, and rolling...